The songs in my days and nights

031009

2009-03-10T19:54:00.000-07:00

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, say:

Difficult enough to feel a little bit
Disappointed, passed over.
When I've looked right through,
To see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me

Well I threw you the obvious,
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see,
See through it all,
See through,
And see you.

So I threw you the obvious
Do you see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy

Well, oh well..

Apparently nothing.
Apparently nothing at all.

You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me at all

030209

2009-03-03T10:00:00.000-08:00

Outrun the fight
I use to hide
in quiet places

I'll rephrase my cry
For I would keep on wondering
the rest of my life

You're all moving too fast
My biggest fear is
that we'll never ever last

I know, it's not that easy
Let's hit the brakes

Don't take no time
Unless there's a crime
to be committed

I guess we lost our faith
While we stand and wait
until nothing ever happens

I know, it's not that easy
Let's hit the brakes

The Gathering - Rollercoaster

022409

2009-02-24T22:37:00.000-08:00

I can't see the meaning of this life I'm leading
I try to forget you as you forgot me
This time there is nothing left for you to take, this is goodbye

Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay

And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away

Close to ending it all, I am drifting through the stages
Of the rapture born within this loss
Thoughts of death inside, tear me apart from the core of my soul

Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay

And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
Turn away

At times the dark's fading slowly
But it never sustains
Would someone watch over me
In my time of need

022209

2009-02-22T04:54:00.000-08:00

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Tracy Chapman - Fast car.

022109

2009-02-21T04:31:00.000-08:00

Out at the train tracks
I dream of escape
But a song comes onto my iPod
And I realize it's getting late

And I can't take the staring
And the sympathy
And I don't like the questions "How do you feel?"
"How's it going in school?"
and "Do you wanna talk about it?"

Way out
Way out of here
Fade out
Fade out, vanish

And I'm trying to forget you
And I know that I will
In a thousand years, or maybe a week
Burn all your pictures, and cut out your face

The shutters are down and the curtains are closed
And I've covered my tracks
Disposed of the car

Trying to forget even your name
and the way that you look
When you're sleeping
Dreaming of this

Way out
Way out of here
Fade out
Fade out, vanish

022009

2009-02-20T05:22:00.000-08:00

You lived a time of lies until you told me everything
I hope we make amends, but you don't
Life taught you how to fly and then you flew away from me
You left me haunted, star the ending image of the one

'Cuz they're still in you too low
All the voices you don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose
(Make the voices tell me who you are and who I am to be)

You harbored all the wasted sighs to define the quiet drone
I'll let you start again, but you won't
I saw you pray for change and then you walked all over me
You wanted what you could not have and now you are alone

Are you alone where you are tonight?
I'm alone when you're right here
But I'm still in you somehow
I never left at all
Now I'm stealing you too low
So my voice is all you know

'Cuz they're still in you too low
All the voices we don't know
And they're still in you too low
All the choices that you chose
Leave you nothing left to hold

When you're nothing it's a good time to remind you of one thing
The pursuit begins when this portrayal of life...ends

Evans Blue - The Pursuit

021909

2009-02-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

Was I left behind?
Someone tell me, tell me I survived.
Don't look so surprised that I'm home, but just for tonight.
With rough hands and sore eyes
so don't speak, I am tired.
Let's just live through this lie.

She says I swear too much,
she says a lot of things,
well I'd swear every other word if I could
for her I'll make an attempt.

Sometimes love isn't about how much someone suits you
but how much you're willing to change to suit them.

All my bones are dust,
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
and my heart's sealed with rust.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
These hands will always be rough.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
I know this won't count for much.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)

One day my hands were too soft,
one day she said, "I'm tired".
one day her clothes were on my floor,
one day, empty bottles.

Well I'm not saying she's my last.
I'm just saying that she could have been,
it doesn't matter how rough these hands get.
It doesn't matter cause I'm not her man.

All my bones are dust, (rough hands, rough days)
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
and my heart's sealed with rust. (rough hands, rough season)
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
These hands will always be rough. (rough hands, rough days)
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
I know this won't count for much. (rough hands, rough season)
(Two people too damaged too much too late)

021809

2009-02-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

I find you in the morning
After dreams of distant signs
You pour yourself over me
Like the sun through the blinds
You lift me up
And get me out
Keep me walking
But never shout
Hold the secret close
I hear you say

You know the way
It throws about
It takes you in
And spits you out
It spits you out
When you desire
To conquer it
To feel you're higher
To follow it
You must be clean
With mistakes
That you do mean
Move the heart
Switch the pace
Look for what seems out of place

On and on it goes
Calling like a distant wind
Through the zero hour we'll walk
Cut the thick and break the thin
No sound to break no moment clear
When all the doubts are crystal clear
Crashing hard into the secret wind

You know the way
It twists and turns
Changing colour
Spinning yarns
You know the way
It leaves you dry
It cuts you up
It takes you high
You know the way
It's painted gold
Is it honey
Is it gold
You know the way
It throws about
It takes you in
And spits you out
You know the way
It throws about
It takes you in
And spits you out
It spits you out
When you desire
To conquer it
To feel you're higher
To follow it
You must be clean
With mistakes
That you do mean
Move the heart
Switch the pace
Look for what
Seems out of place

It's o.k.
It goes this way
The line is thin
It twists away
Cuts you up
It throws about
Keep me walking
But never shout.

Peter Murphy - Cuts you up

021709

2009-02-17T04:00:00.000-08:00

Nuevos ojos
nueva piel
nuevas las manos
del placer

Van metiéndose
y de a poco dominando
mi querer
mi querer

Y la flor sobre la herida que ha dejado
la tristeza del vacío indeseado
es la flor que va creciendo en la marea
de mi piel

Y al olvido de los días
imagino tus caricias
y te pido
guárdate

La aventura que posiblemente sea una más
pero como siempre he sido muy intensa
pienso que te quedarás

Y en el éxtasis de un beso imaginario
mis tragedias forman parte del pasado
y me guardo la visión maravillosa
en la piel

Y en el éxtasis de un beso
imagino más que eso
y te pido quédate

Y al olvido de los días
imagino tus caricias
y te pido quédate

Y en el éxtasis de un beso imaginario
mis tragedias forman parte del pasado
y me guardo la visión maravillosa
en la piel

Ely Guerra - Peligro

021609

2009-02-16T01:24:00.000-08:00

Rain, come down, and fall forever
Drain, the dirt, into the wasteland
Pray, for sound, to quiet the howling

Feel, no shame, too brave
Feel, afraid, to wait forever

Kneel, to fade, the days corrosion
Crawl, depart, towards perdition
Gray, the part, the bruise within you

Feel, no shame, too brave
Feel, afraid, to wait forever

Forever

Feel, no shame, too brave
Feel, afraid, to wait forever

Steven Wilson - Harmony Korine

021509

2009-02-15T08:59:00.000-08:00

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And then maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway

And so maybe
Your friends they stand beside
they watch you crumble
As you falter to the ground
And now maybe
Your friends they stand
beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high

But then some day people look at you
for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home

But then some day
we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside
so you can reach us
But you left me far behind

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say
you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no
Couldn't share the pain
they watch you suffer

Now maybe
I could have made my own mistakes
But I live with what Ive known
Yes maybe
we might share in something great
But wont you look at where we've grown
Wont you look at where we've gone

But then someday comes
tomorrow holds a sense of what
I fear for you in my mind
As you trip the final line
And that cold day when you lost control
Shame you left my life
So soon you should have told me
But you left me far behind

Now maybe
I didn't meant to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say
you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no

Now maybe
I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
No maybe some would say
you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
I said times have changed your friends
They come and watch you crumble to the ground
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hold you down
Hold you down

Maybe brother maybe love I didn't mean to treat you bad
But you left me far behind
Left me far behind
Left me far behind

Candlebox - Far behind

021409

2009-02-14T01:00:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore
I just know that I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me
But the key is a question of control

Can you say what you're trying to play anyway
I just pay while you're breaking all the rules
All the signs that I find have been underlined
Devils thrive on the drive that is fueled

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

There's a hole in your soul like an animal
With no conscience, repentance, oh no
Close your eyes, pay the price for your paradise
Devils feed on the seeds of the soul

I can't conceal what I feel, what I know is real
No mistaking the faking, I care
With a prayer in the air I will leave it there
On a note full of hope not despair

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

Depeche Mode - A pain that I'm used to.